Lost Between the Leaves and Things

This is the room where we always dreamed of grass and splendid evenings.

An August Life
she's tangerine
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au·gust/ôˈgəst/

Adjective:
Respected and impressive: "she was in august company".
Synonyms:stately - grand - majestic - lofty - sublime

lol, majestic. I do like that phrase, though, "an august life," especially since Joe and I tied the knot and moved to New Mexico all in the grand month of August.

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A lot has obviously happened since my July entry! (Hopefully you have been keeping up on Facebook. That is pretty much where I live these days so I can keep in touch with everyone.) We got married on a sunny, sunny afternoon and got to see so many of our wonderful friends and family in one place. ♥ There was a big cookout afterglow following the reception, which ranks right on up there with one of my all-time favorite parties. We canoodled the weekend away at an awesome local bed and breakfast and then began packing everything we could into Joe's Versa. We arrived in the Land of Enchantment on August 9.

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We spent the rest of the month furnishing our apartment, learning where important places were in town, and doing other Adult Things like purchasing cable and Sam's Club memberships. We also watched many, many TV shows on DVD - Parks and Recreation, Community, Breaking Bad. It has been a magical whirlwind of study groups, town forums, and meth. 

At the beginning of this month, I got a job! I am a toddler teacher at a nonprofit arts preschool. :) It is a (gasp) full-time position, with things like paid vacation days and quasi-catered staff meetings. There are many challenges, as is always the case with new things, but also many triumphs. They created an awesome fall mural in our room that I love, and last night some of them were even brave enough to perform with the big kids for the Harvest Performance and Potluck. The director of the school is an amazing lady named Martha, a passionate dancer who began teaching children to encourage them to use art and movement to experience the world. We do a lot of multicultural activities too - they learned about Vietnamese harvest rituals a week or two ago, whut! - which I love. 

The one issue with the job that initially concerned me was getting a ride home. My day ended when Joe's classes began! After experimenting with public transportation and posting a job offer on the college campus, I met a lovely student named Felicia who gives me a ride Monday - Thursday for weekly gas money and a bit more thrown in for miracle-providing. It has been working out really well, I can't believe my good fortune. For the moment, we are a very successful "one-car family," as one person said. (This person is the director of another school in town, where I did some childcare the other night.)

Speaking of, Joe has been in school for about a month now. He really seems to enjoy it, and has made a friend who comes over on the weekends to study. It is great to see them debate philosophy and hang out together.

My coworkers are really neat people, and we have been able to meet up with some of Joe's classmates, but of course I miss my friends, family, and Small World community back in Midwest City. It is a great place to live, and I never realized how deeply I had settled back into it until we started ramping up to our move. This season will be very interesting, since my family has so many autumn traditions: Pumpkin Carving Day, football weekends with delicious food, the Ghouls Gone Wild Parade (more of a brother-and-friend tradition!), Trunk-or-Treating at Wickline. Joe and I will have to come up with some family traditions of our own, Santa Fe style! We have already decked out the apartment with fall leaves, candy corn, and ceramic do-dads. Perhaps a drive through the mountains when the leaves start to turn a bit more. :)



DAY SIX
sarah & joe
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Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

- Joe
- Dad
- Sarah
- Colleen
- Vanessa

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.


Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.


DAY FIVE
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Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

- I wish I hadn't bitten into rock candy that day and chipped my front tooth. Right before college graduation!
- There are more than a few Internet troll battles I should have walked away from.
- There are more than a few RL word battles I should have run flailing from.
- I should have been more academically adventurous in college. I regret nothing about my studies or experiences, but I was far too afraid of failure.
- I wish I hadn't put off learning how to drive to the point that even though I did eventually learn, I still can't drive with confidence.
- I wish I let myself get more sleep at night. Does that count?

This was really difficult, since I think everything you do (even bad things) leads to things you need to do/learn. /kanyeshrug

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.


DAY FOUR
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Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

- Work schedule
- Joe
- Family
- Friends
- "What's happening on Twitter?"
- Opening weekends for movies 
- "I need to clean my room."

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.


DAY THREE
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Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

- Be there for me.
X-Files. And then some more X-Files.
- Be ready for adventures!
- Spend time with my friends.
- Conversations about feminism.
- Swap film references and quotes. 
- Conversations about art and animation.
- Commiserate with me over late night fast food, ice cream, or alcohol.

Luckily I have a whole heap of friends who've got this list down solid, and a fiance who wins my heart anew every day. :3

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.


Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.


DAY TWO
sarah & joe
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Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

- I have quite long hair. I planned on cutting it after the wedding, but I have grown quite attached to it -- no bad pun intended.
- I love hanging things from ceilings. 
- My favorite book as a child, and for a very long time, was Harriet the Spy.
- I have gotten really into scrap-booking in the last year.
- My favorite video games are Super Mario RPG: Legend of the Seven Stars, NiGHTs, and Batman: Arkham Asylum.
- My spirit animal is a fox. Or maybe a robot wearing a hat with a fox pattern on it.
- I love Kit Kat bars, and have unrestricted access to them at my night job. Devilish.
- I am getting married in less than a month. :o
- I am moving to New Mexico in a month. =O

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.



Mondays and Memes
sarah & joe
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A lonesome tumbleweed rolls through this journal.
Somewhere, a lone falcon screams into the high noon sun.

For the first time in four years, I *gasp* did not renew my icon add-ons this month. I will probably renew my paid account in August, though. It is cheap enough, and I have become spoiled in the ways of pseudo-ownership.

Blogging, in general, has been slow. I actually drew a handful of comics for tiny revelations over the past few weeks and lo and behold, a power strike killed my nifty scanner/printer. T__T I have not completed any new books to review at my Wordpress site. My tumblrs get a little play now and again. I am really trying to stay on top of HackHateCulture /plug. 

Sometimes it seems like social media is less of a web and more of an open valley. You shoot arrows off into the distance, in many different directions, and lose sight of them quickly. All of this seems like a big huge cosmic hint to probably do less mindless Interneting and more stuff in real life. But I have always been of a stubborn sort.

Just for the hell of it, and because I haven't updated in a bit, I am going to do this meme I snagged from promiseoftin:

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.


Spencer: I GET TO SEE YOU IN THREE WEEKS! 
Sarah: I GET TO SEE YOU IN THREE WEEKS TOO!
Joe: Sup, handsome? Wanna get hitched?
Lissy: I can't believe you're about to be a mom!
Jei: I am really excited for your library school tweets! ^^;

H.P. Lovecraft: I am sorry it is taking me so long to read this book you wrote. -__-
Vanessa: Your blog makes my heart so happy.
Batman: ILU SOOOO MUCH. ♥ ♥ ♥

Mitt Romney: http://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/ezra-klein/wp/2012/07/09/applying-romneys-rules-to-obamas-economy/
Misogynists: Ugh. Stop ruining everyone's good time.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.


Living With Humans, Part II
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I have had some thoughts since my last post: http://amazingrobotgirl.tumblr.com/post/23805491231/transforming-females

Thank you Colleen, Amanda, and Jei, for your comments and insight. I am constantly reminded how lucky I am to be surrounded by positive, intelligent friends.


Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.
sarah & joe
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And now my life has changed in oh so many ways.

For the past month I have been working a nights & weekend job selling concessions at the city softball park. It's a really sweet gig. Lots of downtime and free snacks, plus the people are very nice. I am working ~50 hours a week right now between Small World and softball, which gets a little "Ah-I-am-always-working-I-just-want-a-nap" now and then, but when school gets out this week it will be much more manageable.

We found out recently that Joe got into grad school at St. John's College in Santa Fe, so sometime shortly after our wedding we will be heading to New Mexico. I am so very proud of him and excited for us, but I have mixed emotions about leaving. More than anything, I will miss my job at the preschool. I love my bbs with all my heart. And even when they are older, reading books and tying their own shoes...they will still be my babies. It is a wonderful and bittersweet thing to be a preschool teacher, especially for toddlers. You help mold the tiniest humans. One of the first handful of words they learn to say is your name. They parrot you, your mannerisms and the songs you sing to them. You show them everything you know and love them as much as you can for an entire year, and then when springtime comes, they move on to the next age group. And they forget you, just a bit. They still know your face, they come when you call them to zip up a jacket or hand them a fallen toy. But they grow up. It's the most rewarding part, but it's also the hardest. PARENTS HOW DO YOU I DON'T EVEN.

I am going to be a bucket of emotions after Thursday, since I will miss these children so stinkin' much.


We'll always have Ring Around the Rosey. DO YOU LIKE MY COWBOY HAT?

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The last few weeks have revealed some tragedies in the lives of my friends. One of my best friends from junior high/high school's dad passed away last week after a sudden re-emergence of a very painful cancer. That has been an abrupt, heartbreaking, nostalgic, unreal experience. One of my best friends from college lost her mom this month after several years fighting a debilitating disease. I'm so sorry it happened, and sorry that I am too far away to bring her Oreos and hug her and try to understand Dr. Who while she watches it on her laptop.

But, there are joyful things too. I had my wedding shower on Friday night at my boss's house. It was lovely, with a lot of nice gifts and very pretty cupcakes. Teacher Appreciation Week was last week, so I was inundated with flowers and cards and gift boxes from tiny hands. My wedding is less than 90 days away, which is exciting. A lot of the heavy lifting is done, so to speak, so I am mostly playing around at this point: buying scrapbooking supplies for the reception, looking at centerpieces, getting tangled up with floral tape.

I think back to the last big, huge thing I did, my college graduation, and it is funny to see the differences and similarities between the graduation and the wedding. The biggest difference is that for the graduation, all I had to do was show up and listen for my name. The wedding has been a from-the-ground-up experience. Both hold a sense of accomplishment, but it's hard to describe marriage tangibly as an accomplishment -- because I am certainly not of the opinion your life is incomplete without it, nor that it is for everybody and every relationship. For us, it's simply...an agreement. We were both lucky to love someone who loved in return, and we are both willing to protect that. But maybe that kind of realization is an accomplishment.


Wedding Writing
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I recently read a book I like about weddings. I liked it so much I sent the blog related to the book a submission based on my own wedding planning experiences lately, and they told me they loved it and put it up on the site. It has gotten a lot of positive feedback, so I am all Beaming McBeamersons over here.

:D


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